My promise

“If we were meant to be, we would have been by now. Go ahead and watch my heart burn with the fire that you started in me.”

Just when you finally feel like you’ve mastered how to ride that bike, a car door opens and knocks your ass right back down. It came out of nowhere and ruined your sense of self, for a split second, or for months. No right or wrong here.

As this is supposed to be an open letter to myself, that I have neglected to write, I will move forward with its purpose momentarily (start date of this entry, August 17th, 2017) It’s now January 18th. And while I’m displeased with the length that has been sitting in my queue, I think it turned out to be the right move. Carrying on:

Since August, I have made an abundance of change, traveled to a handful of new/old places and have done a shit ton of epic stuff. Since I have started this in the new year of 2018 let me give you a brief overview of the change that has happened in my world since August… But first, let me backtrack. I started to write this blog in the midst of a very unhappy time in my life when literally NOTHING was working in my favor. I was “stuck”… I was in a job I hated, that made me hate everything else in my life… and this made me feel like I needed something/someone to fill this void and bring joy, life, light, and smiles back into my world. RELATIONSHIPS DO NOT “fix” anything or bring you happiness that you don’t already have. I learned this, and deep down I already knew it, but I am but a girl with a dream.

Fast forward, I found BLISS in September when I was offered my dream job, working for the DOPEST company on earth. Hello AMAZON! I landed a sweet gig as an Executive Assistant for a really cool person within the company. And through this experience, I have found the happiness that had been suffocating inside of me, just waiting for me to sack the fuck up. Since then, I have lived my best life, without fear. I have traveled, road tripped, hiked, cut my hair and have truly fallen in love… WITH MY SELF. BOOM.

So my promise is to always love myself, to challenge myself, to be wild and free and to NEVER ever settle for less than what I deserve and DESIRE. In this short time, I have blossomed like you wouldn’t fuckin’ believe. It’s been the best (almost) 4 months of my entire life. I want endless exploration adventures with my gal pals, I want memories that last a lifetime, I want heartbreak, and a love so deep and true it feels unreal. I want LIFE. In all its glory…

Where there is no challenge there is no change… so take a chance on yourself, believe that you can be and do anything you set your mind to, and most importantly, have fun. Soak up every ounce of life that you can, because life begins when you stop living in fear. “Fear not for I am with you,”- I say this to myself EVERY.SINGLE.MORNING. As long as you’ve made friends with yourself you will never be lonely. And I’ve learned that there is no gratitude in rushing life, there’s no prize for “almost” making things work and happiness doesn’t reside in a stranger. You are the artist of your life, no one will paint the picture exactly to your liking because that’s merely their perception. The only way you will ever live the life that you truly want is if you just FUCKING do it.

I hope that you make promises to yourself, not resolutions (that I think put a ton of pressure on us as humans) make promises, promises to love yourself endlessly, fiercely and through all faults and mistakes. Promise to feed your soul the good stuff, promise to dance often and get a good nights rest. Promise to change and challenge. Promise to be a better version of you, every day. And promise to listen to what you want and then have the guts to actually go out there and do it.

Promise to wake up and live your best life.

With love,

Ky